Convenient Girl
I put the mat out for you,
It is warm in here
The space where you occupy my mind.
Take off your shoes, get comfortable
You will be here a while
But the door is always open, far and wide.
I am waiting for the time and place where our two worlds collide.
A place and space where I occupy your mind
.
Waiting to hear that you think of me
Waiting to hear that I meaning something
That I am more just than a Convenient girl to you.
Waiting to hear that you want me
Waiting to know there is something deeper
That I am more than just that girl in New Mexico to you.
Starry Hosts
I always waited for the one
Who one day would chase after me.
I wanted to be the host
Your starry host.
But still I latch on to you
Clinging to you in the cold winter night.
The fireworks sound, and you move along. Burning out quickly.
But I look up, and I see your shimmery, starry self.
And I latch on again, to my detriment.
I am the parasite. I am the one standing in our way.
Coming Down
I am finally coming down
From my deluded fantasy.
The projected images burst around me.
Through the rabbit hole,
I finally see,
It was just another wasted fantasy.
Down I go,
And my self-esteem with me,
To an area I now regret.
But I could not see earlier,
So high on that mountain top,
That I was just your marionette.
My Heart
Is broken
Blue
I just pretend
At night
I do not think of you.
It is ok,
Not feeling blue.
Even at night,
I do not think of you.
The night is cold,
The skies are clear,
A little alcohol,
to drown my thoughts, dear
Looking at my phone,
with nothing to do.
Pretending I never think of you.
The Golden Road
A few years ago,
I met you by chance
On a Golden road I remember.
You took my hand,
You showed me life.
You brought me sunshine in December.
Sadly the clouds thickened
Grey and bleak,
Over that broken golden road.
Sadly the luster diminished,
Withered and meek,
The golden coat started to erode.
Years later,
I still see a humble trace
Of sparkles on the Golden road.
The fragments shine,
Our hearts intertwine,
Our sadness we unload.
So whenever I am down,
I smile and think,
Of the fragments and broken pieces of gold.
Because I hold you in my heart,
Think of our start,
On the golden road.
Again
There was no sign
On the dirt road
So I met myself
On the same path again.
There was no path
On the dirt road
So I found myself
In circles again.
A little jagged piece of glass
Offered me a shimmer of hope,
But then I lost sight of it.
Hey, you!
I tried to get my attention.
There might be an outlet over there.
But my voice
Was drowned out
By a sudden gust
Of especially harsh winds.
Hey, you!
I tried one more time to get my attention.
But I only saw a blurred image of her
In the dusty winds.
I tried to shout,
To stop her,
Because I saw her meeting him
But I tripped over that jagged piece of glass.
On the dirt road
Again.
Ice
The sunset paints colors on the ice,
Shimmering, oranges and blues.
Here we stand again
On ice, I am with you.
It cannot stay cold forever,
And the Sun is beginning to melt the paths
I hold your hand even tighter,
We can no longer go back.
The cracks are even more visible
As the New Mexico sun bears harshly down,
Our previous paths are blurred,
Fragments of ice still around.
At the coldest of the night,
We hold hands and stare at the ice,
Frozen in time with you,
We keep warm in paradise.
No matter what the temperature,
The sky grey or blue,
I will stand with you patiently
Even on the frigid ice with you.
Ennui
Everything is dull without you
My days are black and blue.
Everything was fine before you.
The skies were powder blue.
Ennui.
It has consumed me.
I cannot go back to the day.
Before I met you.
I cannot go back to the day.
When I started to regret you.
Everything is darker blue now.
The feelings I disavow.
Everything is shaken now.
My true feelings I cannot allow.
Ennui
Has consumed me.
Without you,
I carry on blindly.
Rainbow
I built a bridge
On a rainbow
Once
For you.
All seven colors
Every single shade.
Seven.
For you.
Sometimes the clouds
Interfered
Grey and Black
With you.
But I never forgot
The rainbow
Not once
Not you.
Every shade of color
Reminds me of you.
All seven colors
Every moment - it's you.
But this rainbow
Always fades -
It is not solid
I can only see through.
But I built a bridge
On a rainbow.
Once
And it was you.
I built a bridge on this rainbow,
With a little too much blue.
Song Clouds
My thoughts float around
Like a cloud
A storm cloud --
They are all about you.
The purples, and the blues,
And the greys
Form a cloud song,
And it is all for you.
I float on the clouds,
Not realizing it is empty space
As the droplets of moisture come down,
The mascara leaves marks on my face.
Your song is so lovely
That I always come around
Not realizing the clouds are empty.
They are clouds on the ground.
Your song is so lovely
That I always float around
Not realizing the clouds are empty
They are without sound.
