Black Holes

Dreaming of
quantum crystals
Flashes of the past,
The shadows they cast.

Black holes can open portals of change.

Light cannot escape,
the pull of a black hole,
gravity, the weight, pushing on your soul.

Nothing that falls inside can come out again.

At least not
in its original state,
The unknown, it will emulate

the choices that are made.

In the deep blackness of night,
The light finds a way to reach
the quantum crystals of my eyes.

Sometimes I wonder,
maybe, just maybe,
if that light found a way

to escape a black hole.

After thought clouds

The desert rain turns the sky dark,
But the booming lightning is somehow comforting
When it lights up your face

And I see the real you, in a blaring instant.

Only after the rain is gone,
And the flowers start to wither in the dry heat
Do you start to think of me.

Only for a hurried moment
As a cloud passes by.

Until the pattering rain
Blurs your reflection
In a murky puddle.

And the flowers do eventually bloom,
Vibrant though dark
I do not think you see
Their growth is stunted.

And the sun shines,
And don't you look lovely
Behind the blinding light?

But I see the real you
Behind the flowing clouds
And you see me
As an after thought.

Faith

The fleeting rays of sunshine
I noticed them there
Only after they were gone

No evidence they were there.

The child's blissful laughter
I noticed it there
Only as it disappeared

No evidence, only a picture in my mind.

The peacefulness of full sleep
I noticed it gone
Only after being deprived

The evidence in the bags of my eyes.


Most only appreciate
the warming sunrays
In one single, solid moment

Only when the evidence is there.

But when time begins to slow
The memories speak
and will all blur together

The evidence in a lifetime.

Letting Go

I've had a hard time coming to terms with some of the sadness and pain that I've felt over the years, specifically with people I have felt betrayed by. Even when I feel like I'm good and moving on, there are reminders of how they hurt me. One of the only ways I know how to truly let go is to write it all out. I'm always told to just let it go, and maybe I can, one word at a time.

Letting Go

Happy adages, smiling words of wisdom
Positive Words
Melting Ears


Just let it go, they say.

Hide your emotions,
in the little canyons near by,
the cracks blend into the landscape.

Just let it go, they say.
You'll be happier that way.

If the canyons and cracks
start to overflow,
They're some holes you can dig.

Push it all away, they say
You'll be happier that way.

And keep climbing, Just keep climbing

Eventually you'll get to the top,
and you won't be able to see the
cracks, canyons, and holes
all hidden by the brush.

Don't let the rugged landscape bother you.
It's always been like this.

Just keep climbing, they say.
There's no bridge to the past anyway.

Not sure if I'm on top, past it all
or if I'm fooled by the tree line

Not sure if I'm on top
or if I've just settled.

All I know is that I can't go back,
It's too dangerous to go that way down
Again.

Nothing Else

An Old Friend

Cast aside gently
I didn’t want to hear from you anymore.
My hands are weak, my mind dull.
I have nothing to offer you.

I have another friend now,
There, always lingering.

You were always there though,
even in the dust.

Unconditional.

The dust will not settle,
spiraling in the light.

I have come back to you,
weak and desperate, as always.

Yet you never say a word,
silent and still,
open, always open,
And rather bluntly you tell me,

I have nothing else.

You are Nothing Else.